惧

夜深人静，把播放器都关掉了，一切陷入寂静。

最近常常陷入一种莫名的恐慌，也不知道是从哪儿来的。

生活渐渐变得有些平淡，需要有些许改变来调剂一下。

努力工作，努力party，登山、滑雪、攀岩、旅行、sailing，interrailing，其实细数下来生活也并没有那么无趣，可是总觉得缺了点儿什么，需要一些新的刺激。

买了一对新的雪板，花了10几K，就付钱的当时心弦小小触动一下，然后就没感觉了。很怀念以前小时候买个德生牌收音机都会激动一礼拜的感觉。

交往对象也随意，很怀念以前传个纸条，拉拉手就激动一礼拜的感觉。

Work is still a lot of fun and challenging, relationship is flourish and is suppose to be fun as well, no money issues, everything seems no problems at all, then what the fuck is the problem? 兜兜转转回到生命的意义，可能有点儿无病呻吟么，可是真的觉得缺了点儿什么。

So it is? Just like what it says it would be. Life goes easy on me, most of the time. Got love, got glory. Probably just need to figure out what I’m looking for exactly.

Sailing to Visby in June, Go to Ararat in June or July. Also booked a trip to Kayaking and party around Ibiza in July, guess it’s gonna be a lot of fun.

C’est la vie, guess we gotta live with it.